The eighth

Hello my beloved ones!
I just got home from a absolutely great weekend, that i spend with first of all my niece, but also my sister and her partner. The love I feel for my niece is beyond anything I have ever felt before. It's just a special feeling I cant describe, when I hear her warming laugh or heartbreaking crying. A love I never experienced before. I'm always sad when I have to go home, but I guess the distance makes me appreciate the time I do get with her, even more.
 Anyways, I had a great weekend. I'm a bit tired from all the playing but I'm happy and greatful. The thing that came to me in all the chaos, is how do parents get the time to meditate? I mean, I'm lucky cause I can walk away a few minutes to pray and meditate, but the parents need to be there, all the time. She cries the minute they leave the room, and when she sleeps, the dishes or the laundery needs to taking care of. And the dog need a walk, and the parents need to shower and pay the bills and shop and cook and clean and on and on and on!? The tempo is extreme, all day long and I just want to take this chanse to say, you are awesome. I admire your spirit, your energy, your love, your patient and everything else that comes with parenting.
  I promise you, I'll try to come up with a good idea to get some me-time. Because in the end, the most important you'll ever have. Is you.

The seventh

Hi there! I'm so very, very happy to have all these new readers. Very welcome to this "inner-peace-searching site! I hope you find something here that can help you. And please, feel free to ask me anything! I'll do my best to help you :) This blog sure helps me a lot, it's perfect for me to go online and write something down on a bad day, sort of like therapy. And to go online and write when I'm happy, makes me feel even more happy. So thank you, everyone for helping me! :)
   I've been so tired this week, and it's just wednesday? Well, I think that's a lesson my body's trying to give me. I work my ass of, everyday at work and It's a lot of fun and I love going there, but I need to change something in my life to get more energy. I sat the other day with my enegydrink in my hand and started to think about how often I've bought them, the last couple of weeks and how bad it might be for my body. And how stressed out I feel, for hours after I've been drinking them. It's not good for my body and not good for my inner peace.

  So I made a decision - Stop drinking energydrinks and start living a more healthy lifestyle. Tomorrow I'll start of my day with two boiled eggs, and half of a grapefruit. I'll try to eat something small and healthy every third hour, and I hope that my normal energy will come back to me soon. It's autumn in Sweden right now, starting to get cold and it's dark outside most of the times. So I guess it's logical that my energy's lower than in the summer.

Anyways, maybe some of you have the same problem and want to start their "new life" with me? I'll try to put up some recipies and tips that I'll use. And hey, feel free to send in tips to me aswell! If you're lucky, I'll post them! 

The sixth

At first i need to apologize for these last days, I've been very busy so i havent had time to blog any. I hope you guys had a great week and a even better weekend? I try to seize the weekend by doing good stuff for my self.
  Yesterday was a bad day for me, I realized that a year have passed since a dear friend of mine passed away in cancer. So I had a hard time doing something productive, you know. But you know how I say we should be kind to ourselves, so I took a decision and gave myself some time, and took the evening to light some candles, talk to her and grieve. I think that was the best thing to do for my self.

We can't get happy if we deny our feelings. I think we have to embrace them, and let ourselves be sad, be angry, be happy, or be tired. Why do we struggle against it when we can embrace it and let it pass? 

The fifth

Hi there!
First of all I'm want to say welcome to all the new readers, I hope you like what you read and find something helpful here :) 

I've been thinking a lot about respect these last couple of days. I've been feeling a lot of pressure from work and people in general lately and today I just felt like I really needed to do something. I mean, you can stand there and just let people talk you over, or you can put your foot down. The thing I find difficult is to, you know, tell someone you’ve had enough, but still nicely. Especially when I’m talking to my boss, it’s important to say no, but in a good way, so you don’t get fired or something. 

  Well, today I had that talk with my boss, and what I really did was opening up. I told her about my concerns, that I don’t feel comfortable in some situations and things need to get changed around there. And I have to say the response was really good! She started to apologize, gave me a lot of credit for my work and then promised me that she would do her best to fix these things. And afterwards I was really proud of myself! It’s important to stand up for yourself, and today I learned that’s it really worth it!

People won’t always give you respect, and if they’re not. You have to take it.  

The fourth

Hey everybody, I'm hoping that you've had a great weekend just like me? Yesterday I met up with my good friend Mela. We had a onepiece-party and watched movies, cried and laughed together. I think it's importortant to embrace your self with people that make you feel safe like that, and that makes you happy. I'm blessed to have that kind of friends, and I love them all, very much.

Anyways, I've been thinking a lot about my relationship with God lately. (Get ready for some deep stuff) I think it's important to talk to your higher power on a daily basis and I do that by meditation and prayers. But lately I've lost my will to pray and meditate, and I don't know why. But I think thats okay to do, sometimes, not like a habbit but sometimes. I mean, we beat our selfes up every single day for stupid stuff, so why don't give ourselves a break and just say, "It's okay to not be perfect" I feel like we have to stop beat ourselves up like this everytime we get the chanse. Choose love.

But like I said, I don't want to make this a habit, that I can use to beat myself up with later.
So tonight I'm gonna pray.

The third

Today I've been struggle with myself, actually. My own thoughts stops me from getting out there and enjoy the world, you know. But I guess it's okay to have one of those days sometimes. But it's important (cause I always did this to myself before) that I dont make it someting "normal".
  I mean, yesterday was a really good day! I met this girl and made a new friend, that's not something I do every day, or even once a month so I was happy about it! And this morning, I was tired but still happy. Then I got to work, and my whole body just started screaming "screw this", since then my mind just... chained me.

Well, in Sweden it's friday so it could be just that I'm tired and stressed out. It's a good thing the weekend's here. Tomorrow I'll have some time to meditate and get back to the same old me, and then hang out with some friends having a onepiece-party :)

I'm thinking about this blog a lot during the days. Trying to figure out how to write everything I want to get out there. And my purpose with all of this is to help people who have problems finding inner peace. If you have any questions, I meen anything at all, just write to me and I'll try to help you. These questions don't have to be about meditation at all, just about life, how to handle things when they're hard. I'll try my best to help you.

The second

Like many others on earth I try to stay in touch with my spiritual side at all times, but it's hard, right? Especially when you live in a city and there's people everywhere, cars honking, trains to catch, jobs to be on time to. I think you understand what I meen, and sometimes it just feels impossible to be spiritual. But first things first, what is spirituality anyway? 

For starters I want to say it's something personal, some of you may find spirituality on a walk in the forest, others may feel peace of mind when they meditate, some after a really hard workout and others even when they cook, cause it's their favorite thing to do. You've to try different things, and have patients. For me it took up to a year to even understand what it really ment to feel complete. But I never gave up, and if you don't give up you will succeed. 

For me spirituality is about having a peace of mind, to feel like life is really good and that you're happy in the place you are right now. But the most important thing is to always be "here, right now", not having anxiety over what you did yesterday, and not feel worried about tomorrow or next week or the weekwend after that, but be able to live right now in this moment with no worries what so ever. 

And how do I do that?
Well, for starters I sitt comortably. I really don't get those meditatons were you have to sit with a straight back, with your legs crossed like i tailor and feel pain in every single muscle? It's not possible to get relaxed that way? Not for me anyway. (And for you who can? I'm happy for you, maybe that's the next challange for me? ;)) Anyways, when I feel comfortable i close my eyes and I listen. My absolute favorite place is somewere outside by a leaf forest were i can sit and hear the trees whisper to me. And I ask myself, what is it that I hear, right now? Maybe I hear a tree, and the next thing i hear might be a bird. After a while i smell, still with my eyes closed, what is it I smell, right now, maybe grass, maybe soil? Then, still with closed eyes, i feel. How's my feet? Is every toe relaxed, and how is my breathing? is it relaxed? Do I feel any pain anywere? 

And it's important that what ever you hear, smell, feel or think, it's okay!! It's okay if you sit there and thinking about jellybeans or that horrible thing that happened last week. And hey, change your position if you're not comfortable. Cause it's hard to steer your thoughts. Don't beat yourself  up if you can't be there, right now. You will be some day, I promise you. 

If you can do this, even just for one minute, you've gotten yourself a minute of right now. And that's a minute were you didn't have any anxiety about yesterday or tomorrow. And if you do this, (or anything else that makes you feel calm and "togheter") a few times a day, I promise you life will get better itself. 

Good luck! 

The first

Hej, och välkomna till en ny sida med fokus på sinnesro.

Jag startade min egen resa för ungefär två år sedan, jag vaknade en morgon och tänkte för mig själv "det kanske finn en annan väg att gå"
  Jag var djupt deprimerad, fyllde mitt liv med droger och annar livshotande, och brydde mig inte ens lite grand om min familj och mina vänner som funnits där hela mitt liv. Men värst av allt, tror jag, var att jag inte brydde mig om att jag skulle dö imorgon, för det var så mycket jag hatade att vara vid liv.
  När jag ser tillbaka på det nu, tycker jag att det är så sorgligt och ingen ska behöva känna så, så nu två år senare har jag bestämt mig för att komma ut med min egen historia, och om jag kan hjälpa bara en enda person att ändra på sin livsstil så är det tillräckligt.

I alla fall, det där är bara en liten del av hur hela mitt liv såg ut, jag vill behålla fokuset på de bra sakerna i livet för jag tror på att du får det du tänker. Några av er kanske ser det som en stor klysha, men det är min sanning, och om ni vill ha den delar jag gärna med mig av den. Jag menar, hur många gånger säger du till dig själv "Jag är inte bra nog, jag kan inte, jag är ful, jag är fet, jag kommer dö ensam, ingen tycker om mig" om och om igen? Och hur många gånger ser du din spegelbild och tänker "Jag är en bra person, självklart så kan jag det här, mina ögon är vackra, jag har ett underbart liv"?
  Varför gör vi det här mot oss själva? Vi borde fira Att vi lever, varje dag! Genom att göra roliga saker, äta jordgubbar, skratta, gå på bio, krama en vän, pussa din mamma, vara kapabel till att säga Tack Gud, eller vem du än är för det här fantastiska livet!!

Det här är tillräckligt för idag, men jag tycker att det här är något som är värt att tänka på.
Förändringen måste ske inuti dig, för att förändras alls.